i miss you. terribly. i don't know what gotten into me. i deleted your no. cause like what you once told me.. if you really don't want that person in your life, remove them as much as you can. i wanna do that to you. but i guess i can't. i missing your random smses, your calls. why must you treat me like this in the first place? now, i'm all fallen into you. i don't want it to happen again and again. i just can't. seeing you online, not chatting with me.. it just hurt every min. thanks for everything. i realized who i am. i'm not pretty, not flawless, not fair, not slim, don't have that sweet voice. i really do sorry for falling for you. bye

“Every girl has that one boy, that they’ll never get over. That one guy who makes you laugh all the time. The one who gives you butterflies just when someone mentions his name. That one who remembers all the stupid things you say and reminds you about it months from now. The one who has his name written all over your heart. The one whom you compare to everyone. The one you never get sick of talking or hearing about. The one you cry over and over about. The one everyone thinks you can do better than. The one you ask why her and not me. The one when you first saw him you knew you loved him. The one that in some way ends up not being yours.” -ya.

i couldn't stop thinking when it comes to you. i thought i'm over it. but i just simply don't understand why am i still feeling all annoyed and frustrated when i saw your photos with her. all my life, i had never admire a guy so greatly.. until you came into my life and change the word never to ever. i didn't know what i should do to get over you. i swear it isn't what i wanted. i didn't mean to hunt you like a stalker. i'm not a stalker. i just couldn't resist from looking at your profile and saving a few photos of you. its not as if i wanting to be your girlfriend or something. just that i want you to appreciate me like how i'm appreciating you. i wanted to talk to you so badly. but i didn't have the chance to do it. i don't know when will that chance come. or did it just slip off my hands? sometimes i really wish i didn't know you. i really wished i never want to know you that deep. never looked into that eyes. never ever even have the thoughts of liking you. those eye to eye contact. its not that i did it on purpose. it just happened. for 5years, my resolution haven't change completely. all i want to achieve is a simple hi from you. but till now, it didn't happen. what can i do to make you say hi? i may say that i like this person, that person. perasan here and there that this that guy very close or like me. or really like me, i don't know. eh this guy not bad looking, handsome. but i can't deny that no matter whoever walk pass my life, nothing will ever change your status in my life. i tried accepting other guy in my life just to replace you. it works, for a few months. after that that feeling came searching for you. all i wanted to do is to be your friend. i didn't ask much. furthermore, not as if we are totally strangers. we used to be in the same religious class. the connection isn't that far.. but why are we like some kind of strangers? oh Allah s.w.t help me.